Today was a really crazy day, and I didn't fast like I wanted.
I was actually feeling pretty good fasting wise this morning. I think when a fast is started, Day 2 tends to be the hardest as far as cravings, then Day 3 is probably the hardest as far as feeling the effects of the fast, that is lack of energy, brain fog, etc. That usually goes away pretty quickly, in the next day or two, in my experience. But anyway, I was feeling pretty good overall, no cravings really, and just hanging out with my kids while my wife was at the gym. Then at about 10am my little 10 month old baby had a seizure. My 12 year old daughter was holding her at the time, and suddenly said "Daddy, something's happening!" and the baby was just convulsing, not breathing. Nothing like this has every happened to us before, so I called 911, and the ambulance came and took my baby to the ER. I dropped off the other kids and joined my wife there (she came home while the paramedics were at our house and rode with her in the ambulance), and we were there until about 2pm. Baby is totally OK now, it was just a febrile seizure, which apparently are pretty common and not overly concerning.
Well, I think I might have been in shock all day, reliving those moments when it seemed to me she wasn't breathing. That compounded my already low-energy feeling, and I thought I should eat something, so after poking around and having couple bites of chicken and a cookie, I figured I should just accept it and made a big, but lo cal, salad (sorry I forgot to take a pic before I had a couple bites):
I like to use just salsa and a couple of tablespoons of sour cream for the dressing. It's delicious and much lower calorie than typical dressings like Ranch. I really can't stand the lo cal dressings you can buy off the shelf. So I ate that and felt better. It was getting late and I was really tired/drained. We had promised my oldest daughter we'd have a movie night, so we did, and we had some chips w/ sour cream and some chocolate to go along with that, which I did eat unfortunately.
I can definitely attest, as I've said before, that when we are tired, drained, stressed, etc., that it definitely lowers our will power. In retrospect, I probably should have just gone to bed, but I really didn't want to disappoint my daughter, especially after what she'd been through. Sometimes it's a tough call. I don't regret anything.
Despite that "failure", I am really happy with the results of the fast so far, and I am not discouraged! I am making great progress getting back down to my goal, and I will continue. Never give up! Keep moving forward!
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